A message from Emma Grant

Thank you so much for all your messages of love and support on the TVSN Facebook page. It means a lot to know you are cheering me on as I go through this.

Now, I’m not calling it Cancer with a capital C. It’s thyroid cancer. I don’t think it deserves that level of fear or respect, and I’m not willing to give it that much energy. Instead, I’m looking at this as a journey towards health, wellness and positive growth. I want to share this with you, in the hope that it helps others find strength and power.

OK, the most common question I’m asked is: “How did you find it?” The answer is a little weird.

Four years ago, as I was falling asleep at night, I would hear the word “endocrinologist” over and over in my head. I didn’t even know what an endocrinologist was, let alone visited one!

But us Celtic people are an intuitive bunch, and I knew I needed to take heed. Some of you may know that my Mum has gone through Breast Cancer twice now, and in both instances, it was her own intuition telling her something was wrong. Even when our family GP told her it was “all in her mind”, her perseverance to push through led to early detection and treatment. I followed Mum’s lead and went to my GP and told her what I’d been hearing. Although she didn’t scoff at me, unfortunately she never sent me to see an endocrinologist. Most (but not all) of my blood tests were in the normal range, so it was largely dismissed.

Three years on, in April last year, I decided enough was enough. Enough feeling lethargic, enough stressed out mood swings, and enough feeling like a shell of my former self. It was like everything had slowed down. Small bruises were taking ages to disappear, my skin kept breaking out, and I gained about 5kg in a month. Given my weight has always been relatively stable, I knew something was going on.

I searched Google for “holistic endocrinologist” and saw a name that I felt inexplicably drawn to. I made an appointment to see her without discussing it with my GP, as I didn’t want to be deferred again. As soon as I walked into her office, I knew I was in the right place. I felt warm, cared for and safe. At that first meeting, she checked my thyroid and told me it was enlarged and that I needed to get an ultrasound. She also identified other health issues, and so last year became about wellness: eating well, getting rest, exercising and de-stressing with yoga and meditation, to keep my body balanced.

If you’ve never seen a picture of a thyroid, it’s the most beautiful butterfly shaped organ. In fact, I don’t think I’ll ever see a butterfly again without thinking about the thyroid. The ultrasound showed four little lumps – AKA “nodules” – on the right side (or wing) of my thyroid. One nodule was larger than 1cm in size, and this usually calls for a biopsy. She suggested I keep an eye on it and follow up in 3 months.

Three months later, she said I could wait another 12 months, but I pushed and said I wanted it checked now. As it happened, the follow up showed the larger “suspicious” nodule had grown quite quickly; the biopsy called it “atypical”. Usually, she said, you would wait 6 weeks and do another biopsy. I stopped, took a breath and looked her in the eyes. I told her I wanted it out as soon as possible.

She referred me to an incredible surgeon, who agreed it was best to get it out. The shape, the rate of growth, and the little patches of calcification were all reasons to be proactive. He was confident that we could just take out the right half of my thyroid, heal, and life could pretty much return to normal.

Unfortunately, the diagnosis was thyroid cancer. So, 13 days after my first surgery, I was back in hospital to remove the remainder of my thyroid. I woke in recovery to see two very neat matching scars, looking like a little smile across my neck :-).

In fact, other than some bruising and stiffness, I felt an incredible strength coming through me, like a warrior woman filled with fire. By the second day, I had my suitcase packed and was sitting upright on my bed, washed and dressed, asking the nurses when I could be discharged. Lucky for me, they let me go that morning, which happened to be Valentine’s Day – best Valentine’s ever!

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I should point out that thyroid cancer is rare: only about 5% of all thyroid nodules are cancerous. Even with my “suspicious” biopsy results, it was still only a 30% chance of cancer. The odds were in my favour. I still feel that the choice to remove the right side initially was the correct decision. It was just unfortunate that in my circumstances, it didn’t go my way.

So what happens next? I’ll be back on air next week, and then a short break as I head into hospital for radiotherapy, which will be a ball of boring-ness: two days in total isolation while I’m radioactive. Hopefully after that, I will be done.

There is so much to be grateful for. Thyroid cancer is known as “one of the better cancers to get”. That doesn’t take away the enormity of the diagnosis, but in terms of treatment and prognosis, it’s definitely in my favour. The doctors and nurses were awesome, so respectful of my wishes – they even agreed to read out some positive affirmations as I went under the anaesthetic, so that I could feel calm and peaceful.

I also feel grateful for my intuition, and for my body’s ability to heal. I’m grateful for the abundance of love and support I’ve received from friends, family, my partner, and the TVSN crew (on screen and off). I feel grateful for the opportunity to grow in strength, wisdom and compassion. To have faith, in my voice and myself. We have to be our own advocates. If it doesn’t feel right, say something.

You might have heard me talk about my collection of red shoes. Over the years, Mum and I have gone through various health challenges, and they have become our symbol of strength, courage and determination. And yes, thanks to Mum, I am now the proud owner of a pair of ridiculously impractical and impossibly beautiful red shoes.

I’ll be back on air next week…wearing those red shoes. Onwards and upwards, baby!

Emma x

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57 thoughts on “A message from Emma Grant

  1. O Emma sorry to hear this.

    Like you I have had cancer mine was Bowel Cancer in 07 just after my mum dying of it.  Like yours it is one of the cancers, if caught early you can get over it. I had no signs but my doctor checked as mum had it. I spent a week in hospital getting  over the operation and few weeks at home. I was luckily  I did not need any other treatment as it was caught early and had not left the bowel area.  

    Each year for 3 years I was check yearly to see if it came back now ever 2 years for the rest of my life.

    I hope you get to where I am soon, just having check up…..  👠👠👠👠👠👠👠

    julie

    ent from Yahoo7 Mail on Android

    From:”TVSN” Date:Sat, 28 Feb, 2015 at 11:32 AM Subject:[New post] A message from Emma Grant

    tvsnlive posted: “Thank you so much for all your messages of love and support on the TVSN Facebook page. It means a lot to know you are cheering me on as I go through this. Now, I’m not calling it Cancer with a capital C. It’s thyroid cancer. I don’t think it deserves t”

  2. O Emma sorry to hear this.

    Like you I have had cancer mine was Bowel Cancer in 07 just after my mum dying of it. Like yours it is one of the cancers, if caught early you can get over it. I had no signs but my doctor checked as mum had it. I spent a week in hospital getting over the operation and few weeks at home. I was luckily I did not need any other treatment as it was caught early and had not left the bowel area.

    Each year for 3 years I was check yearly to see if it came back now ever 2 years for the rest of my life.

    I hope you get to where I am soon, just having check up….. 👠👠👠👠👠👠👠

    JULIE

    • Hi Julie, I am so sorry to hear of your experiences, and how lucky that your Doc was vigilant enough to do the proper checks. I hope that you continue to enjoy good health and vitality from hereon!

      Emma xx

      PS. I gotta learn how to do that shoe emoji, it’s awesome!

    • Hi Julie,

      Thank you for sharing your story, although I am sorry to hear about you and your Mum’s experience. I am very glad that your Doc was vigilant enough to do all the right checks and caught it early, that’s fantastic.

      I hope you continue to go from strength to strength, and thank you for sending good wishes my way.

      Emma x

      PS. Love that shoe emoji – will have to learn how to do it! xx

  3. I wish u well and send blessings only in times of struggle can we find how strong we can b may u live a strong happy healthy life

    • It’s true Leanne, I would never have asked for this, but there’s a strength I’ve never felt before! Thank you for your kind thoughts x

  4. How brave & what such a beautifully worded journey you have had Emma. Now you know just how many well wishers are following you. I will be looking out for you with your red shoes!’ Keep thinking as positively as you do. Alley

    • Thank you Alley. I am indeed overwhelmed by the number of well wishes I have received this weekend, has humbled and bolstered me. xx

  5. Emma ,never lose hope ,I was Diagnosed with cancer when I was 33 years old it got me in the milk duct of my breast,thank goodness it was incapsuled, they gave me. Partial mastsectany and radiotherapy for 6weeks everyday ,that cancer was supposed to get me in the brain the spine and liver,at the time my youngest child was only 2years old and I knew I had to really fight this and not let it win ,for the sake of my 4 children and my husband I am now 60years old and all clear ,never give up love you are in my prayers xx

    • Hi Maria, I am so sorry to hear what you’ve gone through, but thank you so much for sharing your story. It must have so scary to go through all of that, but what a fighter you are. Thank you for inspiring me today

      Emma x

  6. Dear Emma
    So sorry to read about your health problem. Good luck to you and I know with your strength of character and positive attitude you will come through this. Take care.

    • Hi Faye, thank you for taking the time to write and offer support and encouragement, it really does mean a lot.

      Emma x

  7. Sending you love and hugs Emma at this difficult time. You are incredibly strong, and look forward to seeing your lovely smile back on my screen.

    • Hi Sheila, thank you – I will be back on screen from tomorrow (Monday) afternoon, it’s like the first day of school again! Thank you for your support.

      Emma x

  8. Emma so glad that you are well on your way to recovery. Five years ago I went to my GP to get a script. and my wonderful GP mentioned that she noticed that the right side of my neck appeared slightly enlarged as opposed to the left side. Within 5 weeks I was having surgery to have my entire thyroid removed for the same reason as your diagnosis. The left side of my thyroid was “normal” at that stage, however after close evaluation the specialist recommended total removal.
    Who would have thought, I went to get a script for something totally unrelated and if it had not been for the excellent expertise of my GP, the malignant cells would have continued to spread considering that I had no symptoms whatsoever. I just take my thyroid tabs as soon as I get up every morning and I have a blood test once or twice a year to ensure that the quantity of the thyroid tabs.do not need to be altered. I started applying the Eleusian rose hip oil as soon as I was able to and today there is absolutely no evidence of any surgery. So for other customers reading this, it is wise to have a blood test to check the thyroid as in my case it is possible to have no symptoms. I wish you the best Emma and thank you for sharing your experience as I hope that by sharing our “thyroid” experience we have been able to help other customers .

    • Alicia, I am amazed by your story – how great that your GP was on the ball, and knew what to look for. It seems to be different for everyone, the blood tests didn’t show anything about the thyroid for me, but luckily the specialist listened to my story and looked a little deeper. And I’ll give the rosehip oil a go too, thanks 🙂

  9. I just wanted to give you my best wishes. I went through thyroid cancer 9 years ago when I was 22. I was scared but determined not to let it rule my life. I still have frightened times but have had 2 beautiful children since. Good luck with the iodine treatment and I hope you don’t feel too ill while your in there. Take special care of yourself xx

    • Stefanie, thank you so much for sharing your personal story, it is great to hear not only stories of recovery, but also of thriving! It inspires me, so thank you. xx

  10. May you enjoy a long life Emma . Looking forward to seeing you once again on the box. My prayers are for a good outcome have faith in the wonderful medical staff and go forward as this is just a bend in the road of life.Love Maureen Semgreen.xoxo

    • A bend in the road – what a great description! Thank you Maureen, I will keep your words close to me. Looking forward to being back on air from tomorrow! Emma x

  11. good luck and best wishes for a speedy recovery .l had half my thyroid out because of nodules but was lucky mind weren’t cancerous.

  12. Thank you for sharing your story with us Emma. I’ve been fighting a different disease for 3 years now and have for the most part tried to remain focussed and positive in dealing with it as you are and am convinced this approach will pay off!

    Hey, how lucky am I that I’m a devoted TVSN family member as I’ve access to such wonderful health and well being products from superfoods, my pilates machine and vibration platform, beautiful skin products, oh and Beenlightened candles to aid my healing and to give me a
    feeling of calm and well-being.

    Onwards & upwards Emma and I will be sure to give you a cheery wave when I next see you on one of the shows. Hoorah for the red shoes…they helped Dorothy get home and they will do the same for you too.

    Love, Hayley x

    • Hi Hayley, 3 years is a long time and I hope that your continued journey to health will be full of love, joy and support.

      Yes, there are some great products at TVSN, and the candles are such a nice addition to the home – I think I’ve had at least one candle burning every day since coming home from hospital! It’s a nice reminder to let the light in.

      I love what you said about the red shoes helping Dorothy get home, and I will hold that image with me – thank you. xx

  13. So glad you listened to your inner voice and intuition and sought help. Your positivity will see you through this journey and encourage others going through similar issues. I applaud you for speaking out and sharing your story with us. Wishing you a speedy recovery back to full health and enjoy those red shoes of yours! Sending you much love and blessings xxx

    • Hi Karen, thank you for your encouragement and support – and yes, red shoes will be the staple wardrobe accessory for some time, I think! xx

  14. All the best Emma. You are very brave and positive. Thankyou for sharing. I am certain that there are many TVSN customers out there thinking of you at this difficult time.
    Monica

  15. Dear sweet little Emma, oh i am so sorry to hear about this, i have been thinking about you a lot and was wondering what was wrong. I too have been fighting a very rare and aggressive type of Liver Cancer, last year i had the whole right side if my Liver removed, but i was like you four Dr’s said there was nothing wrong, my blood test and everything came back neg. including a Biopsy! but i KNEW something was wrong, all my symptoms did not go away. One Dr. said if you have Cancer i will eat my hat, another said you don’t look like you have Cancer you are too fat.!! Everyone said forget about it but no i knew. I went back and said i wanted to have another core Biopsy the Dr said i would not it is a waste of time. But i went and sure enough Cancer!!!. Why do we have to do their jobs. If any one out there has a feeling follow what you think. Darling Emma i also have had the Thyroid done. I do hope and pray that you will be fine now . I am sooo glad you stuck to your guns and followed through. I can’t wait to see those little red shoes and cheeky smile, i will be watching you. If you ever want to talk feel free our beautiful Emma Lots of Love Suzanne Newman. xoxoxo

  16. 👠👠👠👠👠👠👠👠👠👠👠👠👠👠👠👠👠👠👠👠👠👠👠
    Emma these are on your iPad, bottom left next to the .?123 button
    Glad you’re back, doing well and looking great
    Annette xx

  17. Dear Emma,all the best for your treatment,i watch tvsn all the time and you are one of my favourite presenters so sorry to hear about your cancer diagnosis. Last year i was diagnosed with colon cancer fortunately they got it early but i have to have another. Colonoscopy this July , it is scary but i hope you will be alright all the best love from Anne

    • Hi Anne, thank you for your kind thoughts. I am sorry to hear about your health situation, I am thinking of you and hoping you get the all clear. xx

  18. Hi Emma I watched your recorded msg and your such a positive person all the best Blessings to you .marnie Lloyd

  19. Hello Emma, thankyou so much for sharing your story. As soon as I saw the scar on your neck I wondered if it was thyroid ca. Five years ago next month, I was diagnosed with the same thing. I had had no symptoms at all, no swelling, nothing. I had been to see a new doctor about something entirely different and she had requested blood tests for various things and those tests picked up thyroid imbalances. A scan was next but that was inconclusive, so then a thyroid biopsy which was very painful. And then came the phone call that I had a papillary carcinoma on my thyroid in the right side. I was so frightened, it felt like the bottom had fallen out of my world. Anyway, they took my whole thyroid and I recovered quickly, had my radioactive iodine treatment and wore lots of scarves. Now, five years down the track I am about to have the yearly scan and blood tests. The scar has faded and is not noticeable and I am healthy. My diet is clean and healthy, I cook everything that we eat from certified organic products and have been off sugar for over a year. As soon as I saw your scar, I just wanted to reach out to you and say everything will be fine, you will feel great and never even know that you have not got a thyroid. You are a very lovely and happy lady and have a great outlook on life and a positive attitude. Thankyou again for sharing your story to encourage others who might find themselves in the same position. Lots of blessings and love to you,
    Caroline

    • Caroline, thank you so much for taking the time to write to me.

      It is fantastic to hear of your experiences, and that you have recovered as well as you have. Very glad to hear the scar fades in time too – doesn’t bother me too much in everyday life, but yes, a bit more noticeable on those close-ups onscreen!

      The biopsy was probably the least fun I’ve ever had – and still came back atypical (not definitely cancer and not definitely benign) – so that was very stressful with little result. But how lucky that your new doc was thorough in their investigation! I will be looking at a few scans over the next 12 months to keep an eye on things – and hopeful I have seen the last of the radiation room – so stories like yours of five years down the track and doing well are very welcome!

      Your message today honestly couldn’t come at a better time, so thank you again Caroline, from my heart to yours.

      Emma xx

  20. Hi Emma, you are just beautiful and so full of life and positivity. You shine on TVSN as my favourite presenter so knowledeable and well spoken. I wish you continued health and all the very best for 2017. Keep shinning and take care. xx

  21. Hi Emma, I love your energy. I used to have mild autism and had to research everything to work out what I needed. I had a weak MTHFR gene which means eating lots of folinic acid (green food), and lots of other immune system food.

    Have you found out or read about Selenium yet? It’s proven in helping hypothyroid but details are sketchy on HYPERthyroid. It’s like the antioxidant for your thyroid. You can get it in tuna, brazil nuts.

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